lots of people in the blog world have been posting on their new year’s resolutions or goals. i summarized 2010 and set goals for 2011 and thought about doing the same, but that seemed boring.
in comparison to 2010, 2011 was a year that felt far more stable. i felt like i was finally getting a hang of this new phase called (semi) adulthood and i had a better understanding of how joel and i worked in our marriage and the areas i needed to grow. in some ways i feel like God gave me this year to recover from the year before…. there was just so much and i was exhausted.
so? 2011 meant that i learned about what it means to be myself in this new life, set boundaries and say no to things (which included a hiatus from a number of commitments) and invested a lot of time and focus into caring for myself, joel, and those around us. our home has transitioned from far away little india to the heart of brea where we get to love our friends in our home throughout the week. i cooked a lot of good food (if i do say so myself) for a lot of people and have successfully rid our kitchen from almost all chemicals, dyes, faux flavoring and anything else that didn’t come from the earth. i helped welcome thousands of people to my happy place. i got to make lots of pretty things for friends and even more for people i’ve never met in IL, TX, TN, OR, CA, AZ, Canada and India. i’ve been an auntie to some of the yummiest babies and got to watch friends become parents. joel and i traveled to new places together and enjoyed one of the best vacations ever with our dear friends. we led a ministry at our church and have been growing in how we disciple our students together. i spent months learning about the holiness of my Father.
it’s been a good year.
so what’s to come of 2012? fullness. that is what i want to experience.
i want to really live and be present. to enjoy beauty, wear clothes that make me feel good, try new things no matter how big or small, cook and eat food that tastes good, makes my body happy, and that looks pretty. i want to live in full color again. i want to be an active participant in the world around me rather than waking up in 2013 and wonder what happened. i want to slow down. to be a better friend. i want to be brave. i want to better tune my ear to the voice of God and be obedient.
in terms of specifics, i don’t have many for 2012…. which is good for a girl who usually lives by the rules.
This was beautiful. Fullness. You described it so well.
Thanks Alanna! I’m loving your 365 project so far… I’ve thought about doing them before, but that is as far as I’ve gotten! Maybe next year, huh? Enjoy your Craisins!
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